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In memory of two gems, Koteshwar Rao Sir and Madhusudhan.

This, surely is a tremendous loss for the world, especially the world of Math. I pray, from the bottom of my heart, May your Souls rest in peace.

I got to know both of them at the same place, IIT Study Circle, Hyderabad. Its not for long that I've been there and known them, but both of them definitely have a special place in my heart.

Koti, as we lovingly called him, will always remain an inspiration for me. ( and hundreds of others who've had the fortune to be his students ) An Inspiration to thoroughly love and enjoy what I am doing… to dedicate my life to something worthwhile… to be uncompromising on the quality of work I do. Though I've failed miserably in learning any amount of Math from him, I feel privileged to have been his student.

and Madhusudhan was my bench-mate in there! I didn't speak much to him there, [speaking to your neighbors was a sin at that place] but I'll never forget the Ratna days; Sanskrit/English classes once in a while, Chemistry Labs, Cycle rides/Walks back from college along with Veeru and Srinu discussing everything under the sun and the Krotov solving session in the park. Memories are all, that remain…

Life "In-gen"

Another post, with nothing concrete to say…

  • These are just a few random musings, for those curious about my life and for the good health of my Blog which is so close to its death..
  • College (+ Hostel) is amongst few places, that everyone on Earth(& elsewhere) \\*must\\* get the chance to be in. There's a whole new world out here, with hell a lotuva things you can do, Here and Only Here… [I am not, by any means, talking of acads!]
  • Projects. Yes they are a part of almost all my random stuff… cos I just Love them, when they are self-assigned and off-hand. They get even more exciting, when the learning curve is Steep!
  • Deadlines can be wonderful things, if only I learn to respect them.
  • Lab-Tests, i guess, are amongst the most hyped tests in the World! They aren't worth all that fuss.
  • Grades ain't everything in Life. Not even if you are doing Engineering!
  • I live amidst /wonderful* singers, marvelous music composers, facile lyric writers, cool Hackers, amazing photographers, inspiring poets and what not. [Why the hell do people then, look just for the *"industrious"/ grade scorers?]
  • Music and Sleep are Great Healers. Laughter, too, is a close competitor.
  • GNU/Linux is addictive. More n more people getting addicted, everyday!
  • RHCE's got a pretty interesting test. Its rare to be interested in undergoing the torture of a test, ain't it?
  • Rules seem to be total crap, until you get the chance to look at them from above.
  • Quark'08 coming up! Gottu gear up for it!
  • Comprees?? They don't bother me so much any more.
  • Finally, for those who found all the above stuff boring and dumb… here's some food for thought > The Best things in Life aren't Things…


A Teen, No more.

As I start this post, the rear-part of my body aches, after a nice thrashing from the hostel junta. Apparently this is my gift on having incremented my account of revolutions, around a big ball of gases. (The total now moves on to 20) [isn't this apparent credit, really a debit?] It was more than compensated for, with a lovely cake though.

I just want to thank all the junta, [relatives and friends and enemies and everyone else], who love me for what I am, even if all they get back is stupidity, imperfection, insincerity, hypocrisy and all sorts of crap. Thanks to everyone who pray for me to grow, up and not just old. Thanks a Million.

A couple of decades through, and still no idea where life's taking me. Isn't LIFE an opportunity that we need to make the most out of?

Just hoping, this year gives me some wisdom, a little courage and a lot more love to make the most of this opportunity.

Lost Control??

Caution: This post is just some arbit crap, that arose from some internal probing. Its utterly worthless for any reader other than myself. This could possibly even be classified narcissistic or whatever that's called.

Presently, I've got tests going on and they are half way through. Considering this and the fact that its been over a month since I last posted, writing a post now doesn't make much sense, does it?[If my blog's been dormant so long, can't it be so for a couple of days more?] But things I've been up to off-late, don't make much sense. [in the past, at least they made sense to me if not to others.] This post is just about that, going from being senseless to at least being less sense [and hopefully, to being sensible]

I've screwed up the tests so far, and don't think will be doing much better in the others too. Even otherwise, I haven't done anything good, anything that feels great, anything that feels right, in the past couple of months (years?? decades??) [except for one video with 'the gang', i didn't contribute much though]. Let alone accomplishing something nice, I haven't even been attempting anything decent enough. My priorities have gone haywire, or may be not, may be I'm just doing things that are very low on the scale or may be I'm not doing anything, things are just hapenning.

  • I've slept through 'n' classes both inside and outside the classroom
  • I've stayed awake all night downloading some crap for my comp.
  • I had been worrying about keeping my blog alive. Made numerous attempts to post something, even if its no big deal not posting regularly.
  • Changed 4 different OSes in a couple of days!
  • been ages since I last visited the Library.
  • Slept through the morning lotsa times, even if I enjoy EBER-ing
  • Bunked bathing just because i'll have more clothes to wash!

The list is pretty long. It ain't sensible to be putting down the whole thing here.</ul> I guess I've just been trying to escape things. Running from doing important stuff. I've had enough. Its high time I do something about it. I've decided to get in control of my life, rather than being controlled by arbit stuff like sleep, a blog, a grade, an addiction, a song, a cricket match, a rain, a meal, a game of carrom, a prof's accent, a course, a test or other such trivialities.

I wish to get back on track!! get back into the habit of doing things I love, at the time and place I like. doing things that give me joy, in the true sense. Not momentary, passing pleasures.

Hopefully, with some effort, I will. (A nudge is all it takes.)

btw, if this post was a total bouncer, this is for you….

Time is the wisest Counselor. Exams come in a close second! – punchagan

Unitedly Independent!?

First things first…

स्वतंत्रता दिनोत्सव की शुभकामनायें

Wish You All a Happy Independence Day..

స్వాతంత్ర దినోత్సవ శుభాకాంక్షలు…

[yes, I know just three of the eighteen… and no foreign ones.. ]

Every year, during this time of the year, the papers and news and blogs and all other such media, are filled with analyses, comments, opinions and all sorts of things on the progress made (and not made) by Independent India…. the flavour of patriotism that was only subtle all this while, tends to grow upon us as the Day arrives and I'm no exception.

Being an average Indian, just one amongst the Billion, the progress (or non-) is a very big issue for me to comment on and I would leave that job for the better qualified or the more courageous ones. But I wonder, I (just) wonder…..

Come August and its the beginning of a new semester, bringing along "Elections" in campus. This time is no different… I can see people gearing up…. campaigning has begun even before the announcement of elections or nominations… and what goes on here?

  • "Dude.. I don't need to campaign.. there's enough guys from our state in our hostel.. so contesting= winning.. don't worry!"
  • "Look dude.. both of us are from the same state.. so I know you will be obviously voting for me.. but still if you want, you can have a look at my Agenda… "
  • "Hey, its not important for me to tell you my agenda… its sufficient for you to know that my opponent hails from the other half of the country (North-South)where we hail from..
  • "People.. we need to make sure that only one person, belonging to our state contests for this post… or the votes will get divided"

Where are those ideals of unity and brotherhood? Isn't it important that the best person be chosen? Shouldn't the abilities of a candidate be considered rather than where (s)he hails from or what tongue (s)he speaks? Isn't it an irony, that all this happens precisely during this time, when the whole nation is celebrating the birth of an Independent India?? Shouldn't at least the celebrations be able to evoke the emotions of brotherhood, love and equality amongst us?? Shouldn't the fact that all of us are here with a purpose, a common goal of education, enough to get over the differences of language and origin? Shouldn't the interests of the College and the Students overpower such minor issues??

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These days my strolls, in the blog-o-sphere, have grown manifold both in their numbers and lengths. And with every passing step… self doubts mount up. I begin to wonder if my blogs even worth its w8 in 'seconds'. Like the thousands of others in this world, I could post something in one of these genres but..

  • Techno Blog. [On various latest hardware, softwares, gadgets et al..] But I ain't a geek to be able to post such stuff. If I ever posted something of this genre.. it would just be a copy-paste job.. isn't of any great value, given the readership of my blog.
  • Scientific Blog. [With the latest advances in various disciplines of Science] Again a case similar to the previous one. Not of much use
  • Literary Blog.[Stories n Poems n other Creations.] I ain't a creative being and rarely indulge in such creative acts. Would be foolish
  • PhotoBlog.[Creative Pics/Paintings, Worthy of Display] I own no camera and don't borrow one too often. Also haven't got a very Creative eye to capture magic from the ordinary. Un-healthy
  • Daily Diary. [An account of my day-to-day tidings] My life ain't overflowing with adventures. I am presently leading a non-adventurous, pretty monotonous life that would be uninteresting to readers of all classes. Ruled out for the lack of utility.
  • Current-affairs Blog. [An account of today's, this week's happenings] Not interested in being a Journalist, there's already lotsa people who can handle the job better.
  • Humour Blog. [Laugh and Let Laugh!] Again there's a lot of it already online, and with a sense of humour like mine, the difference made would be Nought.
  • Inspirational Blog. [Inspire others to do their best.] Its pointless preaching what I don't practice. That would be hypocrisy.
  • Information Blog. [Any info possibly..from pet-care to ethnic goan recipes…] I haven't yet crammed in so much into the super-computer on my top-floor to beat Google.
  • A Mixed Bag. [Posts of multiple genres] Impossible. The bag's already empty for every item of it has already been ruled out.

Do I still need a BLOG?

ps: Prevention of boredom-induced-insanity is the one and only genuine reason(known to me) for the continued existence of my blog.

PS Ramblings

Note: This post isn't of much use to others (may be the same with other posts too.. :P) Just a few ramblings of the 2 month stay @ Delhi…. (allegedly doing a Project!)

  • All Scientists ain't Scientists
  • There's nothing BIG about Research papers… [You can do all sorts of things in there… something like the TOI comparison of Sachin and the Sensex… ;)]
  • The "Hacker Culture" ought to be adopted (or atleast something closer to it..) at Research organisations.. [I thoroughly hated the hypocritical behaviour of the people at my PS.. ]
  • Of all the people, the guy I found closest to being a hacker [w.r.t technical skills] was the guy operating the Photocopier… [this could well be a case of poor observation or under-estimation, but that's what I feel right now.. ]
  • Perfectionists manage to be imperfect at the perfect time…
  • Need to develop the ability to talk crap!(not just type in.. ) [comes in quite handy.. ]
  • I loved EBERing all these days.. got to keep it going. [jaanees.. need some help in this.. ;) ]
  • Loooong walks are great fun… [anybody game??]
  • I ain't a very Creative being…
  • I ought to learn to be more tolearant to using Windows, I guess.. [It was a real pain using it…]
  • My Will power (for doing stuff that I hate.. ) has tremendously increased!! Thanks to the one and only….
  • Any project that's not my choice will inevitably turn out to be a Projest [can't say much abt the others.. ;)]
  • Hostel in Coll is ulti cool.. don't ever dare compare any other one with it..
  • and found this cool pic… [I guess I need to follow him.. ;)]


ps: there's a lot more… but it ain't coming up here.. :P

Busy without Business...

Yes, that's what my PS's been like.. It hasn't turned out to be as great a learning experience as one would imagine it to be.. [or atleast I hoped, it would be…] On the contrary, its turning out to be bad…

Nowadays, there's a certain danger of the same thing happening, even in the famous field of physics. I was shocked to hear of an experiment being done at the big accelerator at the National Accelerator Laboratory, where a person used deuterium. In order to compare his heavy hydrogen results to what might happen with light hydrogen, he had to use data from someone else's experiment on light hydrogen, which was done on a different apparatus. When asked why, he said it was because he couldn't get time on the program (because there's so little time and it's such expensive apparatus) to do the experiment with light hydrogen on this apparatus because there wouldn't be any new result. And so the men in charge of programs at NAL are so anxious for new results, in order to get more money to keep the thing going for public relations purposes, they are destroying – possibly – the value of the experiments themselves, which is the whole purpose of the thing. It is often hard for the experimenters there to complete their work as their scientific integrity demands.

When I first read this {from Feynman's Cargo Cult Science [Adapted from a Caltech commencement address in 1974]}, I couldn't quite figure out what or how exactly things are happening and what exactly Feynman meant by "losing the value of experiments". But, now I know.. thanks to my PS. A lot of stuff that goes on here..[at least from what I can see..] is quite similar to (in fact worse than) this. PS's been absolutely disappointing.. I don't think I've learnt anything here that's worth the effort of spending my hols (too), away from home… [except for Awe-TEM] I don't think I will be taking back anything with me.. other than may be, a knowledge of stuff that I shouldn't learn, stuff that I should keep away for the rest of my life…

Feynman is saying this to me, Right now!

… I have just one wish for you – the good luck to be somewhere where you are free to maintain the kind of integrity I have described, and where you do not feel forced by a need to maintain your position in the organization, or financial support, or so on, to lose your integrity. May you have that freedom.


I am beginning to notice something about my posts [ok.. there aren't many that make it here.. :P] There are sometimes, when I feel I should write about a specific thing. I feel as if, there has to be a post about this, and there's no way I can't write about it.

But then I have limited access to net here… and even less time when I'm alone, to write up something. I definitely cannot access net immediately, whenever I get that 'feel' to write about something. So the post is postponed… And later, when I think about it, or do get access to net… it seems that topic isn't worth writing.. or that 'feel' isn't there anymore..

I wonder if this would have been the case with my other posts too.. if only I waited longer to post them?? [But on reading some of the older posts I don't feel so much that way…] Am I being lazy?? [Is this how other blogs die down?] Is it that my life is dull and boring here (if it was so bad.. I guess I would've managed to write about boredom! :P).. and there's nothing worth writing? [and I am just thinking of something to keep my blog alive?] Is my blog closer to its end than it is to its beginning? [I don't think so.. its only a matter of time before I get back to coll.. :P] But is it the best way to be posting [instinctively… immediately]??? Or is there something better that I should be learning.. that I should have learnt by now??

BTW.. why do people blog at all?? What's the whole point of Blogging? [Yes, I haven't still understood what it is.. even after about 30 posts…]

Summer or Awe-TEM!! Whatever... Forever

Writing from Delhi, doing my PS at NPL! One would imagine, that I am here enjoying myself; that I am enjoying thoroughly the exposure I am getting to the world of Physics at a Research Level; that I am spending each moment, inspired. But things haven't been so rosy here… until today! [All this while I had been only doing a lot of mechanical labor, very unhappily…]

Its around 12 noon, when I get a call, in the lab, from my guide asking me to come down to room no. so and so. I had no idea what that room had, or why I had been called. I enter and I am lead to another room inside. I enter and there's a huge machine. (first look, reminded me of Vickers' Hardness Testing Machine, that we had in Lab at coll and I had a test on using it!) and its called a TEM. But when I got closer, I fell in love with it! I dunno how and why, but it looked simply amazing and extremely lovely to me [Nothing like the Vickers' machine]. A 25 to 30 year old machine, lots of controls all over it, lots of circuitry out in the open… absolutely awe-inspiring..[though I knew nothing about them.]

And then came the moment. The lights in the room were turned off, and slowly and steadily the beam intensity of the TEM was increased. Gradually the Greenish Fluoroscent Screen (displaying a sample magnified X27,000) came to life… with control lights blinking here and there… in the darkness of the room.It was absolutely amazing; A great feeling. Though I was in there for a very short while… an absolutely unforgettable experience; and will remain so, for the rest of my life.

Now, it doesn't matter to me even if I don't learn much, during the training period, I don't mind doing any kind-of mechanical work, I don't mind not getting any results from my work, whatever… it doesn't matter any more. This one moment; that's all that matters.